Rie is a pain...

what can I do...there just ain’t a thing
to prevent a fight from taking place
between us...everytime one of us opens
the mouth， it’s a beginning of another.
On and on and on...nothing’s changed.
She says I should hold on myself a little
longer before I think I get hurt by what
she says or does...maybe she’s right.
But it ain’t easy to stop how I feel，
when I feel that way. I never knew what
I want from her， thou. I end up asking for
another fight unconsciously...I don’t want
it for sure... . And every after our fight
is over， I feel I never wanna talk to her
again， but she keeps calling me again，
just like this time， we had a fight over
the net and on the phone， and ended up
badly， then she called me， sounding as if
nothing had happened last nite. Or another
case， I release my firm beliefe and think
somehow that she might’ve changed...， which
only turns out that I am wrong again with
another fight starting on...